A Journey into Religion
The Eucharist vs. the Episcopal:
The question of Religion to most, is today even, treated as a backward topic by many, and often in favour, of that of Spirituality in most ways truly. Religion, is often viewed as a backward thing, and as compared even, to Modern existences in all, and as with falsely believing even, that Modern life in all, has far more to offer {and as with Identity too that is}, as compared to Religion itself actually. To perhaps best explain this is to know that, Religion does offer far more alternatives in all, with regards to Identity, and as compared to Modern life, which limits Identity in many ways to ones Identity Card (ID) even, and also, just how much Money one has readily available at most times truly.
I guess in many ways, I do view Religion in a similar manner to that which an Italian would: meaning, from a highly Communicational perspective, and rather than, a Historical one. For many, on viewing whom they are Religiously even, tend to do so from a Historical perspective actually {and as with their Present lives even}, and in many ways, viewing their Religious selfs in all, as differing in truly even, from their Modern selfs in all {and as with their Religious selfs that is in many ways perhaps, whom they were, when they were poor or had no money in many ways truly}. In Italy though, Religion was a very interesting matter in many ways. It had at its core, the understanding and mastering even, of Italian Communications actually {and as embodied even, in the Catechism or Italian Religious Law too even really}, and in many ways even, the ability in all, to express the most outrageous of Ideas even, and in a rather coherent manner actually, such that, the Pope himself perhaps, was bound to put a call to one in many ways truly. That was Religion in Italy once upon a time, where the most outrageous {or disturbing to some even}, was made highly believable actually {and as with how it was Communicated that is}, and in many ways even, making Religious life in old Italy, not about Prayer actually, but truly in all instead, the most thought-provoking and disturbing even perhaps, of Writings in all actually {and as with they even, questioning all of ones Beliefs, History, or even Existence itself too really}.
To in many ways speak of the Eucharist, and as versus the Episcopal too that is, is to speak of how Religion today in most ways, is truly viewed even [i.e., from Religious Beliefs, and as versus Religious Imagery too really]. The Eucharist in all ways even, refers to Religious Worship actually {and as based around Religious Beliefs too that is}, and as seen even, in Italian Christianity too that is, while the Episcopal on the otherhand, is in all ways even, Religious Worship {and as based around Religious Imagery too}, and as found truly in all, in Christianity even, and as seen in South America too actually. In many ways though, Religious Worship today, has come to be highly defined by the Episcopal {and as with even the Roman Catholic Church}, and not the Eucharist either {and as with the Vatican today that is} {and with the Vatican today again, highly centered around Vatican Media actually, and Media too, of the Episcopal/’Religious Imagery’ kind really}.
A Meaningless World:
When one does say that, the World today is pretty much Meaningless, one can at the very least view it from the perspective that, ones Identities in all, do not allow for one, to truly do anything much with them truly. Saying that one is a Father, Brother, Sister, Engineer etc., does not necessarily mean much, as life itself today, does not bestow any benefits truly, from identifying as such actually {meaning that, these Identities even, appear to be highly based around, Toiling actually, and rather than Work itself truly}.
To in all, speak of Religion in my life, is to speak of it in many ways, as a rather confusing even, Journey in all truly {and as with saying again that, Spirituality is more problem-solving based in nature, and does not in all speak of Life’s trajectories in all ways truly}. It is Religion, that speaks of how to plan out Life in itself, and saying that Modern life is Meaningless is at the very least saying that, it brings no truly known {or recognized even}, benefits in all, to ones life truly {meaning again, that there is a general lack of enthusiasm in all, in simply living out life today, and as it truly is actually}. This in many ways again, speaks of how limiting Modern Identities are, and as compared even, to Religious Identities in all, and which can truly in all again, turn one life into a roller-coaster of a kind actually {and speaking basically even, of Temptation too that is}.
My discovering Religion in many ways, did occur somewhat later after my discovering Spirituality in most ways truly. In all ways perhaps, I did not take Religion too seriously, and simply viewed it as no more even, than Sunday Mass in all truly. In all ways though, I did view Religion primarily even, from Prayer itself {and Religious Beliefs too even really}, and to the Virgin Mary even {and not primarily Jesus either} {and in many ways even, one does find that the split between Catholicism in Kenya, and Protestantism too that is, has to do with Protestants in all, heavily about Jesus, and Catholics too, all about the Virgin Mary actually} {this said again because, there is a Catholic tradition in Africa/Kenya in all again, associated in many ways truly, with Jesus, and in all ways even, that having to do with the Virgin Mary, appears more Italian in its ways, while that having to do with Jesus, appears mainly Roman in all truly}.
What though, is Religion actually? To many, it is all about Prayer and Worship even. On average though, one could very well say its all about how one generally Feels in all, ones general Behaviour or even general Intelligence too really {Skills and Aptitudes that is}. To many though, Religion today is not mainly about the above truly, but in many ways even, about meeting a certain Physical Image actually {and not specifically a Religious Image either}, and a Physical Image in all too, rather Western in nature {and as with what even, Modern life today is truly all about} {However though, as back as the 60’s even, one does see a split in the Western World even, and with regards, to those still viewing Religion in all, from the attempt to meet a Religious Image of a kind truly (and especially even, that of a Saint really), and those now in all, attempting to meet, a more or less now popular even, Physical Image actually (and as with the rise in all, and onto the World Stage even, and as with Media too really, of the Western World in all truly)}.
In stating that, Religion in many ways has to do with, not only Identities actually {but Life’s Trajectories too even really}, is in all ways even perhaps, to speak of my search in all, for Identity actually {and in many ways too even really, thoughts of a rather stable life in all truly}.
In many ways perhaps, for me {my search for Identity and Religion in all truly} all truly begins even, with my viewing in all, of American Movies in most ways truly. In them {and as with the Episcopal too even really}, one does still see all kinds of Physical Images even, seeking out Success in all, and in many ways even perhaps, one is truly supposed, to Identify with them in all actually. In all though, I won’t go as far as saying that I knew all this from when young actually, but that, my search for Identity in many ways truly {and as with my Awakening to it even really}, has been truly confusing actually {and perhaps even, due to watching Western Media in all truly}.
In many ways, while believing in all {and when young too that is}, that doing the right thing, and more from a Relational perspective too even really {and as with the Virgin Mary too actually}, would in many ways even, get me through life itself and with as few problems as possible actually {and speaking too even really, of simply feeling good about oneself in all truly}. In many ways though, while I can say that my involvement in all, in Catholicism earlier on {and as with the Virgin Mary again that is}, taught me how to generally feel good about life itself in many ways even {and as with the hope even perhaps, that Relationships in all, do get better with time actually}, Western/American Movies in many ways, would help me develop general Intelligence {Skills and Aptitudes} {and speaking too even really, of Michael Jackson in some ways actually}, and with my home life in all again, truly all about, general Behaviour in most ways truly.
Earlier on in life {but later on too even really}, I in many ways perhaps, began to recognize a few Media personalities in all, that would in many ways even, come to influence me and as with Religion too that is, highly based around general Behaviour in all truly. A few such names would be Charles Bronson, Madonna, Italian-Americans in general {or Robert DeNiro specifically}, Arnold Schwarzenegger, and even Bruce Lee himself too really. I somewhat in many ways began to carry myself around as they would {but not really either too}, and in many ways even {and as with mixed thought in all too really}, they would all come to largely somewhat influence, whom I was with general Behaviour, while in my Teens in most ways really {and as with Madonna even, defining me on my meeting perhaps, something I did like actually} {or Charles Bronson and me even, and in a fight too that is}.
To make a long winded story much shorter, is to say perhaps that, of all forms of Western Media even, it is in many ways truly, Magazine Media in all {and as with a TV Interview too even really}, that I did most identify with actually {and not regular Western media in most ways truly) (and speaking too even off, general TV too that is)}.
In many ways, I would continue looking at Western Media for examples on identity, until I noticed somewhat, that the Media itself, was beginning to become rather Ethnic in nature, and as with it even truly presenting lots of general Feel, general Behaviour and general Intelligence too that is, as being actually truly in all, Western {and with Non-Westerners in all again, said in all truly, to live lives of suffering and pain and of all kinds truly}. I guess though, I did not Identify with any of this, as none of the Images I did see in Western Media in all, truly fit me in any or most ways or form actually {and as with identifying today even, as a ‘European Moor’ in most ways truly (and as with regards even, to Media that is)}. In many ways perhaps, my viewing myself different from those in the Media had me in some ways though, Identifying with the likes of Arnold Schwarzenegger even, or even Bruce Lee perhaps, as people in many ways too, who expressed themselves socially, as I would perhaps {and as with they even, not too easy to categorize, and within Western Media that is}.
Religion and Identity:
How though, do I view Religion in all today {and as with how all this, has somewhat defined my life in most ways too really}? In many ways perhaps, I would say from Identity itself that is {and as with defining it in as many ways as possible} {and away from Identity Cards or Money too even really}, there are several, 9 to be exact, Identities in all, I could associate with Religion today actually, that do pale in all, to that, which Modern life asks us all to live by actually: the Historical Identity {and as with it defining Westerners in all even, highly based around Money and Identity Cards too even really}.
These 9 Identities are:
- Historical Identity
- Socio-Economic Identity.
- Archetypal Identity.
- Economic Identity
- Religious Identity.
- Social/Media Identity.
- Political Identity
- Personal Identity
- Institutional Identity
In most ways too me in all, this is how I do view Religion in all again {and as with it even, providing ample Identities too choose from actually}, and in many ways even, the true beauty in all, of Italian Christianity actually {and as with it even perhaps, the only Religion in the whole wide World, capable of having one envision as many Identities as one possibly can (and to live out life with)}. In all, not everyone out there, has the above 9 Identities too them actually {and with many too, having evolved in what some do call, simpler Societies in all truly (and as with they primarily even, truly only based around the Historical Identity actually)}.
Historical Identity: In many ways perhaps, while the Western World is primarily based around the Historical Identity actually {and as with the other Identities in many ways inexistent actually} {and a few Countries here and there, supporting the other Identities in all truly}, one does find that, Historical Identity in the Western World is actually truly limited in many ways really {as with saying even that, its more limited than that even, seen in Africa today actually}. To understand Historical Identity in all, is to understand it best perhaps, from a Physical Imagery perspective in all truly. In many ways, one does find that, Historical Identity today {and in the Western World too that is}, is heavily based around Work based Identities actually, and one finding in all too really, that the Western World actually does have, many problems even, defining itself as such truly {meaning that, there are somewhat few Jobs in all, to go around for a Western World in all again, with an increasingly even, growing population actually} {and speak too even really, of growing Western Poverty in all, and more interestingly perhaps, that Entertainers in all again, are the highest paid Employees in all truly, and in the Western World too that is}. In Africa though, one does that to this very day, African Physical Imagery, does truly define African Economical activity in most ways truly, and as with saying even, that African Economies in all, are far more interesting places in all again, than Western Economies actually {and as with ability even, to make lots of money perhaps (and surprisingly too even really, based around African Traditional Physical Images, and such as that of the Market Stall holder in all truly), and in a short time too that is}. In many ways, this being the major Identity that most do identify with today (Historical Identity), I can’t say I have ever Identified as African truly {and as based around all this (African/Western Physical Imagery)}, and in many ways truly, this part of me has undergone through several transformations in all even {from wanting to be a Pilot, too even an Engineer in most ways truly} {and with me though, having truly discovered that Africa still truly works around its Traditional Physical Imagery actually, my identifying mostly in all now, as being Arab in all truly (and as in knowing even, I truly more or less look like one actually, and not as an African either)}. In many ways even, this truly somewhat in all, speaks of Ancestor Worship too really {and as with Africans probably in all, worshipping African Ancestors that is}, and with me on the otherhand, worshipping in all perhaps (as with indirect worship too that is), (Ancient) Egyptian, Italian and even figures from the Middle East/Swahili Coast too really, as Ancestors in many ways truly. At the very least, a last resort in guiding one through life actually {and as in many ways truly even, Brownskinned Arabs do view their Historical existences in all, as having been in Egypt, Sicily/Italy, and the Middle East/Swahili Coast too actually, and as compared in all that is, to Whiteskinned Arabs in all truly} {and with the Arab world in most ways even, having its origins in Ancient Egypt too actually} {and as with stating futherly that, the likes of Niccolo Machiavelli in all, were more or less ‘Italian Arabs’ in all truly}.
Socio-Economic Identity: To speak of Socio-Economic Identity, is to speak of it in many ways, as to whom one is, as a Fun-loving being too actually. In Kenya/Africa today, one does find that interestingly enough, Tribal Identities, are increasingly becoming associated with Socio-Economic life actually {i.e. what one does for fun in all actually} {and speak too even really, of the Kikuyu tribe in Kenya perhaps, more prosperous than others in all (and as with their wantoningly even, spending money all over in most ways truly)}. In all ways though, this Identity in the Western World is highly associated with Recreational activity actually (and in most ways that is) {and to say I have been influenced by Western culture in all, is to say I once was a recreational Jogger in many ways truly)}. In all truly, I have never identified with any Kenyan tribe in all {and as with Socio-Economic life that is}, but truly in all again and in my youth, was more or less Western this way actually {and as with speak even really, of being a Jogger in all truly}. In many ways even, to speak of Africa/Kenya today culturally, is to speak of it from its Socio-Economic Identities actually, and as interestingly enough, while Tribal Identity in Africa in the past, was heavily Work/Historical based in nature, today though, it is more or less Socio-Economic actually, and as with Africa too, becoming rather unstable from the Organizational perspective due to all this, and as while it is dynamic today from a Historical perspective {and African Work/Physical Imagery that is}, modern African Historical Identities in all today though, truly lack organization in all ways even, and in many ways too, speak of African Wealth created and destroyed even, and in more or less a Generation (or a Decade too even really). In all ways though, having grown up in a place called Karen in Nairobi, Kenya, and it too {as with Socio-Economic Identity}, mainly actually Angleterre, I identify as such from the Socio-Economic perspective {Angleterre, and as with Oscar Wilde too that is}, and in all ways even, mainly view Pemba on the Swahili Coast too, as my true home in all truly {and away from Italy too that is}. In many ways though, Western life to me, does pale in many ways with regards to general excitement actually {and as compared to Angleterre culture too that is}, and in many ways even, while many do view South Africa in all, to be a kind of haven in Africa, its Socio-Economic life in all ways even, is rather boring actually, and far much boring even, as compared to Angleterre culture that is {as with the main question in Angleterre culture in many ways perhaps, being: “Where did everyone go to?”}. In all ways to me though, the Western World is doomed in most perspectives actually, due to the fact that, its Historical Images are coming under increasing attack from just about everywhere {and as with Westerners even, attempting to claim being a Pilot in all, is actually truly being White/Westerner in most ways truly}, and its Socio-Economic life in many ways too, has become rather blasé even, and in nature too really {as with it all obsessed today that is, with finding cheap sex, cheap food, and cheap drinks all over too really}.
Archetypal Identity: To speak of the Archetypal Identity, is to in many ways even, speak of whom one was to be, at the very end actually, of their Life in all truly {and as with saying even, this has traditionally been rather Symbolic in nature actually}. Today though, one finds that this Identity is in many ways even, actually suppressed by the Western World in all {as with it in many ways even, the true key to understanding the ancient/old World in all truly}, as it in many ways too really, speaks of Independence actually {and not only of the Individual, but also as with regards really, to offering the masses/people in all, as many choices in life as possible truly}. In many ways again, an Identity today {as in the past somewhat}, associated truly with Father Figures in all {and as with the Father Figure today even, highly restricted actually, to ones Family in all (and not History itself too even really)}. In many ways though, with regards to this Identity in all, I do find in many ways that, my identifying first with not only modern Germany actually, but also in many ways too after, with ‘Nazi Germany’ in all {and as with its Economic prowess too even really} {and as with what even, a Developed Country truly is supposed to be like in many ways actually}. And finally in all again, my Identifying much later even {with not only Nazi Germany Symbolism in all, but Symbolism too, not too different from that of the Holy Roman Empire actually (and the Theban Legion in all too really)}. In all, that’s whom I believe myself to be at the end of my life: the Theban Legion/Holy Roman Empire {and as with speak too even truly, of Religious Works originating in all, from them in all truly} {in many ways even, I do find the kind of living in all created by the Weimar Republic, far more wealthier and interesting even, than modern America, modern Europe or modern Japan too even really, pretends (or aspires even), to be in all actually (and as with the Rolls Royce too even really)} {in many ways even, top Western Materiality today, appears to be truly in all, of Weimar Republic Germany actually, and not truly Western/.Modern either that is}.
Weimar Republic/’Nazi Germany’ music:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?list=PL99186796F7F498ED
Economic Identity: Many out there, believe in all truly, that they actually do have, an Economic Identity. This is because in many ways, of the Western Media in all, always speaking on even, the Economic Crisis (Global even), that does seem to face the World in all really. In many ways, they are right {meaning, Western industries in all, producing materiality, that the masses/people in all again, never actually truly buy}. To understand this better is to know that, the Western World is primarily based around the Historical Identity actually {and as with Work/Employment even}, and not the Economic Identity either {which in all/many ways even, speaks of Wealth and Prosperity in all too really}. In all perhaps, only France today mainly, still maintains an Economic Identity of a kind, with America even, highly operating around the Historical Identity actually {and speak too even really, of fewer and lesser jobs by the decade even, and for the masses too that is (and all in the name of Western technology/automation too that is)}. In all again, while Economic Identity does speak truly of Prosperity, I at the very least and as with my Historical Identity even (Arab that is), view myself as an Analyst of a kind truly {and along the lines even, of Niccolo Machiavelli that is}. In other ways though {and as with thoughts of myself being a Writer of a kind} {and living comfortably of this too that is}, I have often viewed myself in many ways even, as Victorian perhaps {and speaking too even really, of a Kenyan Economic Identity that is}. One in many ways though must realize that, Economic Identity in the Western World, is highly Racial/Colour based in nature actually {and where it does exist that is}. Meaning again, that certain Colours in all {and not with being specifically Racial that is}, are assigned certain Successes in all, that other Colours in all again, cannot attain too really {with a known/seen hierarchy in all again, speaking of White, Black and Brown that is} {and with Poverty in the Western World too, mainly Brownskinned actually, and not Black either (and as the Western Media in all tends to falsely portray that is)}. In many ways, it does appear though, that Economic Identity has always been somewhat truly, Colour based actually. In my early years perhaps, developing a Colour based consciousness in all, spoke of my viewing even, one or two even {or sparing viewing that is}, of Indian Bollywood movies in all really. In many ways even, what I was to realize later on was that, these movies had heroes in all, that were actually based around the world of Karma Sutra actually {as with Karma Sutra even, a rather huge field in its ways too really}. Later on, while the Western Media did portray Brownskinned peoples as associated with Rap music in all {and especially Gangster Rap that is}, I guess Popularly in all, I saw myself more or less like Prince {the Musician that is}, and other than by the Tribal Kikuyu name even, given to me, by my ‘Parents’ {and as with me only truly identifying even, with only my first name, which is ‘Alan’}. In many ways though, I do believe somewhat as a Brownskinned person in general, I behaved more or less like a Yogi even {having been interested in Raja Yoga while young that is}, but now more or less truly, view myself as a Brownskinned person in all, as being either Shakespearean, French, and even Aetolian too actually {and French, more or less along the lines, of Georges too really}. In all, these Identities perhaps {Shakesperean, French, Aetolian}, speak of whom I am when I think of living grandly {as with what kind of Intimate relationships even, I might seek out actually} {and with the Aetolian too, speaking of experimentation in most ways truly}.
Religious Identity: To speak of a Religious Identity in all, is to speak of whom one truly is, and as truly based around, all kinds of Beliefs even truly {and as with even really, whats possible in life, and whats not actually}. At the very least {or at the very heart of it too in all}, I am actually truly very much, a Gnostic actually {and as with Italian Christianity too that is (and the Catechism in all too even really)}. At the very heart of it all perhaps, I have always seen myself as Gnostic more or less along the lines, of Simon Magus actually, and Simon Magus too, operating very much somewhat like Samurai even {as in saying that, of all forms of Religious Imagery in all, I did identify with in my youth, it was that of Ronin that truly appealed to me in most ways really}. In many ways, this differs from the worship of Jesus perhaps, whom I associate with Angleterre culture actually {and the Socio-Economic Identity too really}, and with Jesus in Angleterre culture in all, not too different from John Donne himself actually. In all ways though, I mostly associate with Islam from the perspective of the Psychological actually {and not Religious worship/practises either}, and in many ways again {and as with Ronin too actually}, Religious Identity based around the Episcopal, was for me even, defined by many a Martial Arts movie in all truly, but with time, came to be defined even, by not only Religious writings of all kinds here and there, but even, by the Art of Singing itself truly {and along the lines even, of Celine Dion too that is} {and as with saying even, that the Ronin, were actually truly good Singers in all actually (and not Musicians either)} {and as with great Singing even, capable of raising ones Conscience in all, and ones Conscious states too even really} {all this includes even, simply listening to good Singing actually (and of the Celine Dion kind too even really)}.In many ways though, Religious Identity for me {and including the Episcopal somewhat too even really}, can truly be defined by my listening to Religious Classical Music {and being a Gnostic that is}, eating Alchemical Health based Foods (Religious in nature) {and speaking too even really, of French/Italian Home Cooking in many ways really}, and finally even, the reading of Religious Esoteric works in all {Italian, Moor or Arab even} {and speaking even of Machiavelli again, or Middleton too even really}. In all, as with the three defining Gnosticism in general, Religious Imagery and even Conscious states/Conscience in all too really.
Social/Media Identity: Most out there believe they have a Social Identity in many ways truly {i.e., they confuse a Social/Media Identity in all, with a Personal Identity that is}. To speak of a Social/Media Identity, is to speak of, not only Popular Society in many ways truly {and Celebrities too that is}, but also, being a Problem-solver in most ways truly. In all, those who do have a Social Identity in many ways really {and as with Society too even actually}, are those in many ways even, perceived by most, as being good Problem-solvers actually {indirectly even}, and of all kinds of problems too even really {but with Social Identity in many ways (and as with a Seminar too even actually}, extending to those who do need help solving a problem in most ways really} {unknown to most too, the evolution of Europe in all truly, does lie with its Social/Media Identities (including that of Arthur), and not its Historical Identities either (and as many a modern History book in all, tends to show today actually)}. In many ways perhaps is to say that, the Entertainer {and as with Western Media too even really}, is truly, the main Social/Media Identity in all, seen in the Western World in all truly {and as with speaking even perhaps, of many an African/Western Politician in all truly}. In many ways though, one does find that Social/Media Identity today even, is highly based around Skin tone, Hair length, and even Height & Facial features too actually. One does find though that Western Social Identity, is highly obsessed with Skin tones in all actually {and not Skin Colour either} {and Skin tones, as with getting a skin tan in all truly}. I though, have always viewed my Social Identity, more from Facial features actually (and Height itself too really), and rather than Skin tone in most ways truly. As a result in my youth perhaps {and when living in the Western World too really}, I did discover I had an affinity with (East) Asians in all really, that I never did truly understand actually, and until much later on that is. In all {much later that is}, I did discover that while White Westerners did heavily identify with Skin tone in all {and as with perceived even Racial discrimination in Western Social life too really}, Africans in most ways actually create Social Identities in all, highly based around Hair length actually {and with many Africans in all today, still suffering from all forms of Hair issues even} {and as with they truly perceiving even, long Hair in all, to be a sign of Superiority in most ways truly}. Asians on the otherhand, actually tend to create Social Identities in all, highly based around Height & Facial features {and as a result, I unknowingly found myself identifying with them in all, during my years in the Western World actually}. In many ways though, all this before I did awake to my Identity in many ways, and as Arthurian too really. Identifying strongly with Facial features & Height, I wondered why many an African sometimes even {and in my youth too really}, would comment about my longer Hair in general {and something too, I barely ever did notice actually} {unknown to most, Africans in general tend to have rather short hair actually (and with Africans with long hair even, having spent a lifetime in all growing it actually)}. Later on, and due to my Skin tone in all, I was confused by many for being Saudi Arabian, Egyptian, and finally even European too {and as with my Skin tone in all, truly differing from that of Brown skinned Africans in general actually}. In my youth in many ways again, I might have unconsciously identified with many an Ethiopian even {and based around Facial features too actually}, until I did notice I actually truly looked more or less like, Europeans in all truly {being surprised to find Negroid in all, White Europeans that is, and as compared to rather Caucasoid North America in all too really}. It is this in many ways too really, that did awake me actually, to being Arthurian in all {while in Sweden too that is}, having come at the very least to realize, that at the very least from the perspective of Skin tone in all, I felt somewhat connected {sensationally/emotionally that is}, to Europeans in all truly {and as with this connection in all, humour based actually (as in being able to sense out even, White European feelings on general truly) (and as with they not racist/discriminatory in nature too that is)} {an effect I never did truly feel at all, in North America actually, and with the exception that is, of when I did meet a genuine American or two really} {all this, emotional connection that is, as in being able to strike up a conversation rather easily, or even, make the other laugh in many ways truly}. In many ways again though, my awakening even to being a ‘European Moor’ in all, had to do with my truly realizing even, that I was similar in looks and nature even, to many a European Literary/Literature figure in all {and such as ‘Raoul’ even, in Dumas’ ‘Louise de la Valliere’} {and all this as with Facial features & Height too in all that is}, and my even furtherly noticing that the Immigration Officer in many ways responsible for my deportation from Sweden {surprisingly enough, a Dutchman actually}, truly in many ways even, not only did look like me actually, but in many ways too really, spoke like me in many ways really {and as with while knowing I was similar to Europeans in all, this similarity was a lot more obvious to me actually} {unknown to most again, known historical figures such as Andre Rigaud of Revolutionary Haiti fame, was actually a ‘European Moor’ in all, and operating truly, based around a Social/Media Identity that is, and not a Political/Racial one either (and as with the attempts by some in all, to make Revolutionary Haiti in all, a rather racial problem in all truly, and rather than viewing it in all again, from the Psychology of the time too actually)} {this in many ways speaks even of, the Citadel to be seen in Haiti actually, which in all ways truly, is actually all Media, and not Religious/Political Architecture either that is}.
Political Identity:
Many out there, never do think about whether in all, they do have a Political Identity in all truly. In many ways even {and surprisingly enough that is}, one does find that with the obsession in all, that the Western World has for spreading Western democracy in all truly, most in this Sphere of existence in all, actually do not have a Political Identity of any kind truly. What is a Political Identity though? It is the Identity by which one is readily recognizable by even {as with saying that, it is Racial in all truly} {and as with furtherly saying too that, in the Non-Western World, its all about which region/locale even, one does originate from actually}. For a Minority in the Western World in all {including White too even} {and as with Whites in the Western World too really, capable of being Minorities in all again, and as with regards to having a Political Identity too that is (and in many ways even, as with ID Cards today, attempting to serve this function in all truly}, one does find that Political Identity in the Western World {and for those mainly lacking it too that is}, is defined even, as follows really: Coloured Minorities and the Welfare State, and White Minorities and Government Funding in all truly {and as with speak even, of School Bursaries too that is} {and speak too even further, of ‘White Priviledge’ in all truly}. Traditionally though, Political Identity has been based around three things: Voice, Skull measurements & Eyes, and finally Hair (Hair Colour/Texture and Hair Thickness). In many ways today, while those in top Western Society do still use Voice, to distinguish themselves from the masses/people in all, the use of Hair as such even, has become far more popular {and as with speak even of, having Straight Hair and certain Hairstyles too even really, and inorder to be considered a true Westerner in all too really}. In many ways though, and as with my regional home in all, being Pemba too that is {and away from Italy in all truly}, I do identify in all, as a Moor actually, when it does come, to Political Identity. This in many ways too, does refer to the very fact that, African like Hair for instance, can be divided into three kinds actually. First off, you have the African, whose Hair is rather short even, and resembles that, of the Sheep too really {Woolly that is, and Hair too, seen amongst African like populations in Asia too actually}. Second off, you have the Arabian {and in the form too, of the Somali/Oromo}, who has Hair in all, similar to that seen in the Image of the Somali above {and with this kind of Hair in all in many ways even, what does differentiate the Swahili, from peoples in the Middle East too really (and as with those in the Middle East, having Arabian like Hair in all truly)}. Thirdly though, you have a different kind of African like Hair in all, emanating and seen truly, in Ancient Egypt actually {and the kind of Hair again, somewhat European even, seen amongst Moors in all, and the Swahili too actually} {in many ways again, African like populations in the Americas in all, have African like Hair actually (with it though, somewhat Western like in nature too really} {and as with stating again that, Westerners in many ways, are of mixed race in all too really (i.e., never purely white, or purely black either)}. When it comes to Skull measurements in all, the Moor in all again, has similar Skull measurements to those seen with the Sphinx in Egypt {and as with they Egyptian in all too really} {and all this true even, for the Swahili, but not for those in the Middle East either actually (who in all ways, are more or less like the Arabian in Skull measurements actually)}. Finally, and as with regards to the Voice in all, the Moor very much has a European/Italian Voice {and as compared to the Westerner too, who in all ways even, has an Indian like Voice actually}, and with the Swahili too, differing from those in the Middle East in all, by their virtue of having a truly Swahili Voice in all that is {while those in the Middle East, mainly sound like Omanis too really}. In all again, it is the Swahili that are most closest to the Moor in all {and as with Political Identity that is}, and as with saying even, the Swahili are closer to Moors in all with regards to all this, than they are even, to Saudi Arabians or Omanis too even really {and with Moors in all, very much Italian/French in their ways, and as with regards even, to a European Political Identity too that is}.
Personal Identity: One of the main reasons why most out there, do seek to become Westerners in all, is because of their wish to attain in all again, a Personal Identity actually. What though, is a Personal Identity? It is one truly associated in all, with in many ways even, the creation of Esteem {and in a Society too that is}. In many ways, in the Western World, this is truly associated with a culture of Partying in all ways truly, and it is here again, that one does see a deep division between White Westerners and Coloured Westerners in all {and as with White Westerners highly creating Personal Identities highly based around Speech patterns in all, while Coloured Westerners in all again, highly creating Personal Identities truly based around how Caucosoid they do look in all truly (and in many ways even, a relic of Slavery in itself too really)}. One must truly see this, to truly know even, what does differentiate White Western life in all, from that of Coloured Westerners. That in all again, Coloured Westerners truly believe life in the Western World, to be totally based around ones Personal Identity even {and as with what life is truly all about actually}, while White Westerners in all, not only do have concrete somewhat Historical Identities actually, but also truly, Socio-Economic Identities {and which in all ways do differ from Personal Identities actually} {with Socio-Economic Identities in the Western World, dividing Whites even by tribe in all (and as in Irish-American, German-American etc.), and in many ways too really, it is Socio-Economic Identity, that is highly responsible for the better living standards in all, of White Westerners actually, and not the Personal Identity either} {once more it should be stated that, many a Coloured Westerner in the Western World, truly attempts in all, to make it in the Western World totally highly based around, a Personal Identity actually (and as with the hopes even of marrying White in all truly)} {and with White Westerners against Interracial relationships in all truly as based around Socio-Economic Identity actually (and not the Historical/Work Identity either)}. In many ways though, I have found that my engaging White Westerners in all and in the Western World was truly done from the perspective of {and as with the Personal too that is}, my having even, a Boston American Identity actually {and as with my knowing even, ‘Boston speech’ in all truly} {and speech too, similar in nature to Italian-American speech actually}, and with my engaging Coloured Westerners in all (and Non-Westerners too even), mainly done from the perspective of my having a German/Deutsch Personal Identity in all actually {and with all this truly what being Italian, is truly about actually, and as with one being in all again, truly highly Communicational in nature truly}. In many ways though, before my discovering myself as such, I had intended even, to develop a Capoeira based Personal Identity for all this actually {and discovering myself too that is, as with my not knowing why, some people saw me as American or German even too really}. In all again, Personal Identity in the Western World mostly sucks in all truly, and truly in all again, does reach its heights even, in South Africa actually {and not America either (and with America today, suffering mainly/heavily even, from an Immigrant/Minority problem in all too really)} {In many ways even, speak of South Africa is to differentiate terms like, ‘White South African’, Boer and Afrikaner too even really. In all ways truly, the Boer, was in all, a Political Identity, and which in many/all ways even, did come to an end, with the Boer War in all truly, while Afrikaner on the otherhand, is actually a Socio-Economic Identity (with Apartheid in all ways, not truly Afrikaner either, but actually in all, British-American truly). Finally, ‘White South African’ is very much a Personal Identity in all, and highly differs by South African Cities in all too really}.
Institutional Identity: Many out there, tend to identify with their Countries of origins, highly based around what one could term, an Institutional Identity. In many ways even, speak of what kind of Institutions in all, one iwas raised in, and unknowingly to most, while this Identity is considered truly much whom a person is {and as with History too even really}, Institutions in all, are known to change by the Generation (or Decade too even actually), and in all ways even, modern Europeans in all truly too, do identify by modern European Institutional Identities (including a Passport) {and not olden European Traditional/Cultural Identities either (and such as the Economic Identity too that is)}. In many ways, many out there who believe themselves American or Mexican even, would be truly surprised to find out {and despite paying Taxes even}, that they truly are not in most ways even, and as with stating that, many so termed Ethnicities in the Western World, are not true members in all, of most Western Institutions that is {and as with speak even, of Western Illiteracy/Ignorance in all too really} {and as with speak even, of the lower levels of Education in all, afforded to most Ethnic minorities in the Western World too really}. Growing up in Kenya though, one does find that Kenyan Institutions in all, are mostly lacking actually, and in exchange even truly, for Private Industry in all really {and which includes even, the Kenyan Educational System (which is actually highly Privatized in all really)}. As a result, and as with regards to Institutional Identities even, most Kenyans in all, tend to develop in all again, Business like Identities, and as with regards, to whom they are Institutionally that is {i.e. believing they can make a Deal even, and on visiting a Hospital too that is}. In many ways though, one does find that Institutional Identity, is highly correlated even with the issue actually, of what they do term a National Language even {as it does help one think in all, in an Institutional manner too that is}. In many ways again, while Kenya claims to have two National Languages in all {English and Kiswahili} {and with the vast majority of people in Kenya today, poor speakers of both of them actually}, one in many ways again does find that, Institutional Identity in Kenya, is not only Private actually, but also truly, of the NGO variety even. In all though, with regards to Institutional Identity, I do find myself totally identifying even, as European actually {and as based around, my being capable of fluency and masterly even, of European Languages in all too really} {and with Europe today, heavily on the decline even, and Institutionally that is, due to the fact that, European Languages in Europe, are now spoken at levels, that make Africans even (and including White South Africans too) apparently fluent in them truly} {and with the ability to be fluent and a master of a European Language in all, a Genetic trait actually}. In all though, Institutionally {and as with how I believe they should work like in all}, I am more or less Scandinavian actually {and as with my believing even, I do more or less think like a Swede in all, and when thinking Institutionally that is} {all this again, as with Kenyan Institutions even, of the Private Industry kind in all too really}.
Nigerian University
In all ways though, my truly seeing myself as all this, was born out of confusion truly, of why even, my Voice in itself, appeared to change oftenly {and as with my not having control of it even, when talking to certain people in all, and in a manner truly, I believed I should have been talking to them like}. So highly confusing that, I sometimes even felt my hands go numb somewhat, on standing next to two people for instance, and speaking to one in a certain voice {and with certain communications too that is}, and to the next, in a differing voice {and with different communications too even really}. In many ways though, my realizing I had all these Identities {as with what made life in old Italy, rather too interesting even (and as with someone believed dead in all, coming ‘back to life’ even, based on the fact that they were faraway actually, living life based around another Identity in all) (and not that known to one even really)}, led me to realize just how backward even, many a person out there today, actually is, and due to their having only really, just simply one Identity in all truly {and speaking even, of the Historical Identity too that is}. In many ways even, to speak of the Modern World today is to say that, it is modern Germany in all, that does have the highest levels of Identity based Communications actually {and as with speak even of its Institutional Identities actually (and the main Identity even, that the Western World in all, tends to portray itself by actually)}, while France in all again, still retains livelihoods based on four main Identities: the Economic Identity, the Social/Media Identity, the Personal Identity and finally even, the Institutional Identity {and as with they even, more developed in most ways truly, than those seen in America or England too even really} {and this especially true, of Economic Identity and which in the Western World today, is mainly seen in France too actually (and not America either) (and with America’s rich today, mainly born of the Social/Media Identity actually)} {in all again is to say that, even Nigeria in Africa (and let alone Kenya that is), can be said to have better Institutional Identities, than modern England/UK actually does have}
In all, and as with a finality too even really is to state that, life traditionally, was highly driven by the Archetypal Identity actually, and to have it today in all {and as with the Western/Modern that is}, highly based around the Historical Identity, is to in all again, have Society in general, regress back even, to the Stone-Age times in all too really. And despite many out there, truly believing we live in an Age/Time of great Knowledge Accumulation in all, is to know that Knowledge creation in all again, is highly associated with the Political Identity actually {and as with it even, primarily Spiritual in most ways truly}, and in many ways even again, one does find Western attempts in all, to suppress even {let alone oppress actually}, Political Identities all over the World truly {and as with popular modern beliefs even, that only Whiteskinned peoples in all, truly are Intelligent in all ways really} {and with general Spirituality even, highly based around mastering basic Design in all too really}.
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